God only knows what I'd be without you

I've no idea where I'd be without music. It's that friend that never leaves you unless your battery dies or your headphones bust.

The past week my mind's been elsewhere and during those moments of weakness when my mind would succumb to the poisonous thoughts brought on by the infection of the wound from this past summer (one that will never really heal, I've realized), music helps me clear my head. If not, it kind of says the things I'm not strong enough to say or admit to myself and sometimes it touches issues I'm pushing aside for the moment because I really don't want to get into the messy situation that would result in. Regardless, I love music. I wouldn't say it's like air to me. It's more like food. It's water for my soul when it's dehydrated after being drained by the people around me.

I think I need to make a few playlists.

And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught. But you put on quite a show, really had me going. Now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing. That was quite a show! Very entertaining. But it's over now. Go on and take a bow. And the award for the best liar goes to you for making me believe that you could be faithful to me, let's hear that speech again.

Let me get over you the way you've gotten over me. Set me free, why don'tcha babe? Let me be, why don'tcha babe? 'Cause you don't really love me, you just keep me hangin' on. Now you don't really want me, you just keep me hangin' on.

Everybody loves a winner so nobody loved me. "Lady peaceful", "Lady Happy" that's what I long to be! All the odds are, they're in my favor, something's bound to begin. It's gonna happen! Happen sometime. Maybe this time I'll win.

Maybe.