maybe this time i'll win

Maybe this time, I'll be lucky
Maybe this time he'll stay
Maybe this time, for the first time
Love won't hurry away

He will hold me fast
I'll be home at last
Not a loser anymore
Like the last time, and the time before

Everybody loves a winner
So nobody loved me
Lady peaceful, Lady happy
That's what I want to be

All of the odds are, they're in my favor
Something's bound to begin
It's gotta happen, hahaha-happen sometime
Maybe this time I'll win

Cuz
Everybody loves a winner
So nobody loved me
Lady peaceful, Lady happy
That's what I want to be

All of the odds are, they're in my favor
Something's bound to begin
It's gotta happen, hahaha-happen sometime
Maybe this time I'll win

Maybe.

I love Glee. It's a really good show and the music's top-notch.

I'm going through a rough patch right now. I'm not sure how much longer it'll last but I'm trying hard to get through each day. Some days are easier than others, and some days, like the past couple of days, are hard. I feel like I'm falling apart at the seams and I'm fighting to hold myself together, all the while failing horribly.

I don't know what to do.

Yesi says:
hardcore:
http://www.facebook.com/topic.php?uid=8526405673&topic=4909

I wish I was a polar bear says:
if you link me to something like that again

Yesi says:
LOL

I wish I was a polar bear says:
i swear i'm going to do something you regret

Yesi says:

why?

I wish I was a polar bear says:
because i will not support your defanged pussy vampire faggotry
>:|

This house is no longer a home.

My life's back in order, I think.

I'm free of social and energy parasites if only for the moment and for once in my life, things aren't "complicated" and they most certainly don't require any sort of roundabout explanation.

The people in my mobile's address book are all people I actually talk to and I don't cringe whenever I hear the sound my phone makes when I get a text message because of who it may be from.

I don't have something keeping me up thinking late at night. I rarely take my Ambien these days if at all and my dreams aren't horrid or anything.

It's peaceful.

Part of me wonders how the hell I dealt with it. When my friends ask me about it, I tell them I don't know the answer to that myself. It's okay though. For the moment, things are functional and clear.

I hope they stay this way.